Winter Blues
It's been a while since I posted last. I'd like to say it's just because I've been busy. But the truth is it's because I don't know what to say. I keep hoping that I will be happy and things will be easy - honestly I'd just settle for feeling normal again, whatever that means. And yet here I am still feeling down and crying more than I'd like to admit. I really wanted to be merry this Christmas, but I wasn't feeling it. Nothing bad has happened recently. I keep telling myself that I should be happy. But I'm just not. I've been watching sappy romantic Christmas movies. That is probably a mistake. My life is not a fairy-tale, my marriage is not a picture-perfect romance, and I don't feel like I'm going to get a happy ending. Everything feels uncertain and unstable. But I know this is just how trauma feels - I should expect it. I guess I'm just tired. I'm hoping these blues will pass. There's a song I can rea